Whew! Finally, Midterm exams are over! For me that is. The week didn't start out right, I was bugged by my ulcer last friday. Wuz fine come Saturday but by the time me and mommy dearest were about to go home I felt sick again. Sunday, I wuz so not in the mood to stand up and move. Mom got furious coz she thought I wuz faking the damn thing. It took her till yesterday to realize that I wuz sick. She didn't give my baon till yesterday. She texted me asking if I took already took my baon form Dad's change. Well I didn't and I think sobrang nakunsensya siya for making me feel so down. It's just that it takes me such a long time to uplift my spirit, to make myself feel special, that I am good but with her it takes only a moment to make me feel like I'm the most worthless person in the world. You know that feeling right? And I know you know it hurts big time. So me and her are fine now. She made my excuse na rin for my absence last Sunday. Like I said my week didn't turn out right. Actually last week pa. I got in trouble at school because of a classmate. Imagine I let him copy na nga the exercises for IT class the least he could do is edit the footer coz it had my name on it. But he forgot to do that. The prof got furious and I was supposed to get a grade of 98% for my midterms, now I won't be getting that and one of these days, the Dean for Disciplinary Action will have me called at his office. And I haven't told my mom about this yet. =[ Me and Meissy didn't go much with the girls. Kasi I find myself distracted when I go with them, I don't think I'll get to review my lessons if I go out with them this week. And Meissy felt the same. This week we've been together with Eca, Bernice, Annalie and Badong. (hahaha. Badong! FYI Badong's a girl. A friend of theirs gave that petname to her and nakakaaliw syang tawagin nun. So I call her Badong na rin. :P) Actually their fun to be with. I find myself connecting to them and somehow we feel the same insights. I'm really not a goody-goody, but still I know my priorities and as of now I prioritize what I have to do at school. Hindi ako katulad ni Yuki na kayang-kaya maglakwatsa and still find the time to study. Kasi when I have to do something I need to be focused if not I'll forget all about it. So ayun nga, crap pa what happened kanina. Napaka taklesa, sobrang nakakainis. Imagine, ikaw na nga ang humihingi ng favor ikaw pa ang nagaangas! For me sobrang kakapalan naman ng mukha yun. Ano bang mapapagmamalaki mo para umasta ng ganun, diba? Nagbababad kami for 3-4 hours sa library just to understand the lessons para may maisagot sa test pero ano? Kayo? IKAW?! Ano bang maipagmamalaki mo para magutos ka ng basta-basta?! Nag-aaral ka, ang tanong NAG-AARAL KA NGA BA?! Oo natural lang na magtanong ka for other answers, I really don't think the mind can suck up so much knowledge but still nagkukusa ka bang mag-aral? Mukhang hindi kasi e. Manghihiram ka na nga lang ng notes yun tono pa ng paghiram mo as if obligasyon na ibigay sayo yung reviewer, as if sayo yun. You had how many hours to study the damn lessons! PERO ANONG GINAWA MO?! Lahat na lang ba iaasa mo sa iba?! PArang wala lang sayo na exams mo ah! At isa pa hihingi ka na nga lang ng pabor pakopyahin yun isa kasi wala siyang alam BAT KAILANGAN MONG IUTOS?! Obligasyon ba na pakopyahin sya?! HA?! PUTANG INA SUMUSOBRA NA KAYO AH! Tapos babanat pa kayo na "Pinagpapalit mo na ba kami?", "Parang di ka kaibigan ah." Tanginang yan! Kung ganito turing nyo samin wag nyo ng ipasok sa isip nyo na "kaibigan" nyo kami. Hindi nyo alam ibig sabihin non. FYI kung totoo kayong kaibigan you'll try to life your friends not hold them down, not bring them down. Till here muna, writing this post makes me feel so pissed off.
